yes, yes ! i make you fcuk up ? did i ? i felt so pissed off. is everything seems to be my fault ? ya, forget it (: you make me felt like writing this stupid post, and stop blaming me for bringing you such miseries. put yourself in my shoe and think for me too, i admit i am in wrong and a BIG WRONG ! wrong for everything i did, wrong for trying soo much to do something i dont wish to. ya you make my life miserable and i make yours too. so ? is that fair enough ? maybe the decision i make in the beginning was already a big mistake uhs. you really make me felt like i am a timer, so what if i am ? trust or no trust, does not depends on me. i hate myself so much for bringing such misery ! would you be thinking that i am such a attitude and unreasonable person ? pushing the blames to you ? if that is the way, then just forget it (:


skip lesson today : x i just felt like slacking. slap me please ! seat in senja grand for three hours waiting for limin to come out. doing stupid stuffs with my friends there -.- AND they said ? those that are our friends will have a miserable life, why ? because we will be calling them out despite how early it is or are them sleeping : D is stupid, but is true, lol

ya, going out with michelle and maybe limin tml ? to town (: i want my wallet and shoes !
my mom is back and she brought me real lots of things (: thanks ! i love the shirt she bought for me : D

i am losing all my confidence, really !
the feelings is unbearable.